Anxiety.... where do I begin. I have been anxious my entire life but have always tried to sweep it under the rug and convince myself that I was just overreacting. I find myself getting anxious over a train waiting on the tracks between platforms for 30 seconds, before work meetings where I don't even have to say anything, getting to the airport on time, finding a husband, affording a house, wondering if I will have children... the list is endless, and it's taking over my life. 

The worst anxiety attack I ever had was before my driving test (of all things). I blacked out and smashed my back against my bedroom door, with the door knob cracking me in the back, and then I couldn't stop vomiting. One thing that works me up even more is the fact that I feel like no one else would react like this so why am I???

Physical symptoms of anxiety are:

• a pounding heartbeat
• breathing faster
• palpitations (an irregular heartbeat)
• feeling sick
• chest pains
• headaches
• sweating
• loss of appetite
• feeling faint
• needing the toilet more frequently
• "butterflies" in your tummy

So you can imagine it makes you feel uneasy the majority of the time. I used to get severely anxious over past cheating boyfriends and wouldn't be able to eat, to the point where with one of my exes I lost 35lbs... and for someone of my height 5'8", looked and felt like a lot. My heart also beats irregularly which I find quite scary and it's hard to get under control. 

You read those articles that tell you to "breathe, do a yoga pose and try not to overthink", those people have clearly never had the overpowering sense of anxiety I have. 

It has gotten to the point where it is affecting my overall happiness so will visit my GP in the coming weeks and will report back on whether they have a better resolution for people rather than "breathing".